Untitled... Raw is, though...

taring in the face of my mortality.... 
The harsh reality grips me close as a lover... 
Each day closer to death, striving to discover the truth... 
Uncover the truth before they lay me to rest... 
The beating of my heart like the tick tock of the clock... 
Any moment it could stop... 
Life is so fragile... We pretend as if its a durable substance... 
Wreckless ways, as if our actions have no repercussions... 
Too busy frontin' to do something with the short time we are given... 
Never really livin'... Hesitation and Indecision... 
Indecisive... 
Heart and mind divisive... 
Constant unsurety... 
Tainted thoughts and a heart of purity... 

Black People in America CANNOT be RACIST!!!!!!!!

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Beautiful Fool...

3 hours to get ready. 4 hours once you've done your hair. But the outer is all that you work so hard to prepare. You beautiful fool... You make up ya eyes, ya lips, ya fingers and toes. Painstakingly picking out the right shoes & clothes. But your inner is starving, you don't adorn your soul. You beautiful fool... Men see you and grin. They use you for pleasure until they are spent. Not one has stayed. They've all come and went (in more ways than one). Why do you think that is? You beautiful fool... You don't think of anything deeper than how you look. Don't judge the cover, til you read the book. But your pages are empty. Here, take a look. You beautiful fool... You use your looks to get by. Praying they don't find the emptiness inside. But they see your eyes have a 'vacancy' sign. You beautiful fool... Now the years have passed and you're all alone. No man, no home... Nothing your own. Your looks have faded., passed you, your life has flown... Nothing to show. You beautiful fool...

Auset/Isis to Ausar/Osiris

My love, I have bathed with you in the Nile... I have bathed in the beauty and warmth of the golden discus... Unclothed as you perfumed my hair and body with sacred oils... I have made love to you on sheets of finest linens after moonlit swims in the Tigris... Oh, my love, return to me awiftly! My arms are lonely, my heart is empty... You were... You ARE... The precious liquid that fills my heart's gourd... You are, to me, the reeds along the river Nile... You're voice as melodious as the music Shu creates when he blows his breath gently through the hollow stalks... Your eyes... Black az obsidian... Yet they sparkle like diamonds plucked from the belly of Nut (sky)... I have stared into those eyes... Full of wisdom and knowledge of the most ancient and sacred of things... My love, we have dwelled within Upper and Lower Kemet... We have dwelled in Nubia... Kush... We have travelled from Agade to Isauria... Nihon to Timbuktu... We have travelled the world, the U-n-I-verse, over... Holding each other's hand as we watched times change... Oh, my love, return to me swiftly! My arms are lonely, my heart is empty... Oh! This aching within me... I have the power to bring all of civilization to its knees... Yet I canot soothe my pain... Nor rid myself of this misery... I roam tirelessly... searching for your pieces... I tear my clothes and hair... I semear my face with dirt and tears in mourning... I close my eyes... I think back to us among the fragrant berseem... Feating on bread and wine... Yhen feasting on each other's love... How I miss your pomegranite lips that taste of honey and destiny... How I miss running my hands over your skin, smooth as alabaster... Trailing my fingers through your raven hair as you lay your holy head upon my lap... Oh, my love, return to me! My arms are lonely, my heart is empty!....

Its KEMET... Not Egypt!

The proper name for 'Egypt' is Kemet. Egypt is a Greek corruption of the phrase 'Het-ka-Ptah', which means 'House of the spirit of Ptah'. Ptah, Pteh, Peteh. Ptaj is not created, b.u.t simply is. (Memphis is the ancient capitol of Kemet/Egypt), in Memphite theology Ptah is the primal creator, first of the Gods, creator of the world and all that is in it. He is the God of creation and rebirth, craftsmen, artisans and artists, designers, builders, architects, masons and metal workers. They called him the 'master architect of the universe'. His wife is Bast or Sekhmet. His children are Nefertem, Mahes, and Imhotep. Ptah's staff is made up of 3 symbols: the ankh, djed, sceptor (the symbols for life, stability, and power). He sometimes wears a skullcap crown and stands on the heiroglyph for Maat.

The Goddess Maat...

Ma'at Mayet [Muh'aht]. Patron of truth, law & universal order. She is depicted as a woman wearing a crown surmounted by a huge ostrich feather. Her totem symbol is a stone platform or foundation, representing the stable base upon which order is built. Maat is the personification of the fundamental order of the universe, without which all of creation would perish. He primary duty of the pharoah was to uphold this order by maintaining the law & administering justice. To reflect this many pharoahs took the title 'Beloved of Maat', emphasizing their focus on justice & truth. At any event in which something would be judges Maat was said to be present, & her name would be invoked so that the judge involved would rule correctly & impartially. In the underworld, the heart of the deceased was weighed by Anubis (discuss in later post) against Maat's feather. If the heart was heavy with wicked deeds, it would outweigh the feather, & the soul would be fed to the demon AmmitBut if the scales were blanced, indicating that the deceased was just & honorable in life he would be welcomed by Osiris into the Blessed Land. Maat's presence in all the worlds was universal & all the Gods deferred to her. She was worshipped and revered widely throughtout all of Egypt. Even the Gods are depicted as praising her. Maat symbol is order. Goddes of truth, balance & order. Maat, unlike Hathor & Nephthys (later posts), seemed to be more of a concept than an actual goddess. The literal meaning of her name is 'truth'. She was truth, balance, justice, order personified. she was harmony and what was 'right'. She was what things should be. It was thought that if Maat didn't exist, the universe would be chaos once again. The Egyptians believed the univers was above everything else an ordered & rational place. It functioned with predictability & regularity. The cycles of yhe universe always remained constant. In the moral sphere purity was rewarded, sin was punished. Both mentally... And physically, the universe was in perfect balance. Egypt then was seen to be nothing without Maat. Maat was reality, the solid grounding of reality that made the Sun rise, the stars shine, the river flood & man think. The universe, all the world around them was sacred in the Ancient view. 'Ethics' is an issue of human permission. It is a function of the human world or duality. What is 'ethical' for one group is 'sin' for another. But Maat, the reality that made all groups what they are is transcendant of 'ethics', just as a rock or a flower is amoral, a-ethical, without 'truth of falsehood', how can a flower be false or ethical? It just IS. How can the universe be 'ethical or moral', right ir wrong? It simply IS. That is Maat. Despite being a winged goddess (like Nephythys), she was judge at the Egyptian underworld at the halls of Maat or the Halls of Double Maat. The dead person's heart was placed on a scale and balanced by Maat herself or the Feather of Maat. Thoth In other depictions, Thoth (God of writing & scribes) weighed the heart. If the deceased had been found to not have followed the concept of Maat during his life, his heart was devoured by a demon (Ammut-devouress of the dead) & died the final death. If the heart was equal to Maat, the deceased was allowed rto go to the afterlife. In life it ws the pharoahs duty to uphold Maat. 'I have done Maat' has been spoken by several pharoahs. The ruler who forcibly emphasizes his adherence to Maat on his monuments is Akhenaten--the very king whom later pharoahs considered to have deviated immensely from her laws. Maat was also the justice meted out in ancient Egyptical law courts. It is likely that a 'Priest of Maat' referred to people involved in the justice system, as well as being priests of the goddess herself. There is a small temple pf Maat (in ruins) at Karnak. The temple seems to have been built by Hathshepsut (later post) then reconstructed by Thutmose III. Maat did not exist until she rose ... From the waters of Nun (various gods & goddesses of Chaos). She was known as a Neter goddess & as such was described as a daughter of Ra. But without Maat, Egyptians believed Nun would reclaim the universe. She was also thought to be the wife of Thoth, moon god. God of wisdom. God of writing & scribes. To the Egyptian mind Maat bound all things together in an indestructable unity: the universe, the natural world, the state & the individual were all seen as parts of the order generated by Maat. Masculine coulterpart-Thoth. Attributes are the same. Seen to represent the *Logos of Plato* The Egyptians believed the soul resides within the heart... Logos (Logoi) of ancient Greek philosophy, mathematics, rhetoric, theophilosophy and Christianity.

fake new year

This is the gregorian calendar's new year। If the calendar was right and exact, it would start in March. December is actually the 10th month. Dec is the abbreviation of December. Dec is the root word. Dec is indicative of 10. DECade, period of ten years, group or series of 10. DECagon, a polygon with TEN angles. DECagram, is TEN grams. DECahedron, a polyhedron with TEN faces. DECimvir, one of a body of TEN Roman magistrates; especially a member of two such bodies appointed in 451 & 450 b.c. to draw up a code of laws. DECennial, pertaining to or lasting for TEN years, occurring every 10 years. DECennium, a period of TEN years. DECimal system, a number system using the base TEN (10), a system of measurement in which all derived units are multiples of TEN of fundamental units. DECimate, to select my lot and kill one in every TEN of. Anytime DEC is used, it indicates 10. That is because December is actually the 10th month.

I hate to see our ppl talk bad about each other. Yet act as if white ppl are ok. They've made it their mission to destroy us in every way imaginable. They have destroyed our cultures, our families, our mentalities. We were once Kings & Queens. Yet look at what so many of us have been reduced to. Look at so-called Africa. Look how they have destroyed it! Our ppl live outside our Original, devine nature. Yet, we blame our ppl rather than the ones who caused it. If you've had bad experiences with Black women, its due to the way we've been conditioned. If you've had bad experiences with Black men, its due to the way they've been conditioned. If you've had bad experiences with so-called Black ppl, its due to the way we've been conditioned. Whites have done more bad than good for this world. & most of their 'contributions' are actually things they stole from us & wrote their name on. I don't date white men & I don't date Blk men who date white women I am disgusted by my brothers and sister that lay down with caucasians/colored people/man-kind. You may as well be laying with animals.

Manifestation of what a Queen is

Queen (17) is an Original woman who has KOS, is refined, & knowledges God in order to Build alongside of him in their Universe। She is the Mother of Civilization, & as such has all that defines Civilization (17, 1-40). She Knowledges God & true culture (ISLAM). She knows the truth & with that truth she has ran that devil (fear) out. That fear that was planted in her as a little girl (8, 1-36). As a means of controlling, oppressing, keping her from KOS & from reaching her highest 6. She recognizes who the devil is & cees that he has given her nothing (6, 1-36). Thus, she utilizes all this Knowledge in order to take her place next to God, Building & Destroying with him as God & Queen of the Universe (21). Allah never keeps Her apart from He social equality (8, 1-14). Allah knows the value of He Earth & never tries to make her think that she is different (7, 1-14). Different, meaning inferior, unimportant. 17 Understands Her relationship with He (8,1-40) ...She 3's the science of 93 million miles (12). She threes that Her love for God & Her culture will help her get through the Hell until it gets right. Queen as defined by the American Heritage dictionary: the wife or widow of the King. Female monarch or ruler. A woman who is eminent or supreme in a given domain. To reign as queen. The 17's domain is the Universe. She rules in her domain alongside of God. Not OVER, BEHIND, or BENEATH. She trust God to uphold & sustain Her, as Her travels around He at that terrific speed of 1037 1/3 mph (8, 1-40). Queen is a shining example to others. Her is the reflection of He. Her is He best part. Knowing this, Allah keeps his best part preserved for himself (1, 1-14). He keeps the devil and snakes away from his best part, in order to keep her pure and untampered with. Peace.

'He is'. . .

Your speak makes my knees weak/Butterflies make me not eat/Subconcious-lee, our souls meet/Sweatin between sheets/Can't sleep, can't think/Toss'n'turn/with a burn/only quenched/by my nxt fix/A hopeless addiction, I can't quit/An incurable disease, I'm so sick/Can't believe I'm actin' like this... Normally I'd use you & take you out in the streets 2 flaunt you/I know you're no good 4 me, & yet I still want you... I try to leave, B.U.T can't move/Can't sleep, til I'm close to you/Find myself trying to prove/My love is true/And its crazy, cuz I've never been the one to get sprung/B.u.t when you work ya lips'n'tongue/til I cum/I concede, you've won/B.u.t its more than physical... Mentally/affectin' me/My condition is critical/Of love, I was cynical/ Avoidance was pivotal/ essential/to being without stress/Now overcome with love feelings deep in my chest... And its crazy, cuz normally, I'd use you & take you out in the streets & flaunt you/I knw you're no good 4 me & yet I still want you... Come home late, I'm straight over reactin'/A million & 1 questions, I'ma be askin'/You're driving me to distraction/Can't focus or function, not even a fraction/My memory keeps lapsin'/Overcome by passion/Livin' to bring you satisfaction/Damn! This shit amazes me/I'm doing things I never do & actin' crazily/And ain't nobody savin' me/from you/Normally, you would be the 1 in need of a rescue... Cuz normally I'd use you, take you out in the streets & flaunt you/I know you're no good for me, & yet I still want you... Sitting here with this poisonous fire flowin' through my veins/I am trying to break free of you B.U.T. I love the exquisite pain/ Endorphins released all in my brain/Oxytocin/Got me floatin'/ Ya sexy is so great/Tongue game is first rate/I'm in love & in hate/2 forces occupyin' the same space/DAMN! What do you do to me?!?/Moving in me so fluidly/Speaking to my body fluently/These feelings are so new to me/Damn, baby, what do you do to me?!?/Going crazy/as you lay me/on the bed then we move tords (towards) the floor/Scratchin' ya back, screamin', "More!", as my pussy pours/Mind soars/& sails away/ Moans'n'screams increase as ya pace escalates/'I love you, God' all in ya ear/as I'm pullin' you near/Multiple orgasms got me screamin' so the neighbors can hear/Hours later, we're done, so we lay up/Contemplatin' how we break up & make up/And I'm fed up/B.u.t. I'm stuck/ Hopelessly addicted/Soul endlessly tormented/You're an incurable addiction/A ceaseless affliction/Your the poison flowin' all through my system/& I'm ya unwilling yet voluntary victim/Everyone warning me, b.u.t. I don't listen/Caught up in Love's prison... In the past, I woukd have used you... Taken you out in the streets & flaunt you/I know you're no good for me & yet I still want you *smh*

Dark poetry... Part I...

Crucifix burns my skin...from all the sin within... Sacrifices and libations...chanting incantations...to the ancients... Calling upon Set...for the absence of Hotep... Invoking Sekmet... Goddess, enter me...lion headed deity, beloved wife of Ptah...Bringer of destruction to all who oppose Ra... Mark them ah (all)...with the Hermetic Merkabah... Granting me control... Over minds and souls......................

Sun makes love to the Earth (symbolism)...

Your light warms the Earth... Causing a sensual heat all through the dirt... Small tremors slowly getting worse/than they were at first... You send tingles down the Earth's spine... As you travel down the Prime Meridian line... Caress the hills and mountains... Drink from the Earth's fountain... Tremors increasing B.U.T who's countin'?... Causing the waters to rise... No more than 6 miles in the skies... Let the Earth wash over you with her tides... At the Earth motions you're causing... Tremors quaking without pausing... As you move past her Equator... Water turning to vapor... As you penetrate her... Causing the earthquakes to shake her... Warm her waters with your heat... Penetrate her water deep... Don't stop til you reach the ocean floor... Gently caress her lovely shore... The land trembles, wanting more... Release, now she distills... With your heat, your lava, she is filled... Shaking, releasing the tension from her plates... Creating major earth quakes... The Earth creates a thunderous sound...